As I was driving today, I saw a woman outside planting flowers with a toddling little boy waiving a stick in the air as proud as could be, I immediately felt jealous that this mom was able to spend all her time with her son although I didn't really know if that was the truth or not. This statement wouldn't seem alarming until you read the next one. I have been a 'stay-at-home mom' for 23 months today. By stay-at-home I mean that I quit my job. Maybe I haven't been at this for long enough or maybe I am doing it wrong, but I still don't see myself as a SAH mommy yet. I get up early with the kids and have all the time in the world with them, yet I still find myself telling them "just a minute" or "we'll do that later." I'm not one to have to 'find' myself or anything like that. I am a Christian, a wife and a mother and I am very happy with that, but I think I need improvements in all three. So, tomorrow is the last day of school for my two older kids. Summer vacation officially begins in 18 hours for them and I really want to make it a great one. I need to get out of the mindset that I have to hurry through supper and bedtime every night so I can clean up the kitchen and do laundry. No, this summer we are going to spend time together. We can't throw schedules out the window, but I don't need to be a drill sargeant about anything. It's summer break and we live in the country. I think I am more excited than them!
Note: As I finished typing this, my naked, sopping wet 6-year-old just when blazing down the hallway. My first instinct is to yell at him, but it is summer (almost) so I just shook my head and asked if he got his hair washed. Here we go!
