On the other side of the fence?

I think every person must wonder if they are doing what they were intended? This can mean a lot of things, but what jumps to mind is the phrase 'find myself.' You know, like when high school graduates don't go straight to college, the backpack through Europe or take a year off. This isn't exactly what is bothering me right now. I took my daughter to third grade orientation tonight. I knew in advance who her teacher was, but was still unprepared for the emotions that hit me when I walked in. You see, the teacher she has this year was my enrichment (or gifted) teacher from the time I was in fourth grade. She was one of those teachers that affected me, and meant a lot to me and even though we live in a rural area, I haven't seen her for years. I cannot name the emotions that flooded my heart. Relief that I was leaving my daughter in the hands of someone I trusted. Excitement that she remembered me. Pride as I introduced her to my other two children. But there was another feeling hidden deep down. Was it embarrassment? Resentment? Regret? This woman has an idea of the intellectual abilities I had in school. Does she look down at me because I am not working? She said nothing of the sort. She did know that I lived in the same area I grew up in and that I was not working anymore. Not once did she question where I did work or what I might plan on doing in the future. So why do I feel as if I have let her down? Why do I feel almost ashamed for not working and raising my children? The grass seemed greener on the other side, but is it turning brown now?